I haven't posted on this thing in along time. Well here goes. I stopped taking my medication and I feel so weird/shitty. The feeling of being on acid, minus the hallcinations is going away but not quickly enough. I also feel like I'm loosing control again and failing all my classes, even though I'm pretty sure I'm not. Actually I might seriously be failing my stats class. I feel like such an idiot because I have to struggle so hard for stupid bullshit that comes naturally to others...like just going to class or studying. I hate El Camino I want to leave so fucking badly, I want out of here and I want out of this life I've been living. Progression is objective number one right now, it trumps everything and everyone. I started off so determined and I lost it but I think if I buckle down and "handle shit" I can finally finish off El Camino and at least prepare myself to transfer.

I want to GO!!!!! and be a scientist.